Tuesday, April 7, 2009



As of 4:17 this morning, I am thirty years old. I still sleep with my teddy bear. My mom bought him for me when I was born, and I slept with him and a blanket she had crocheted. Despite many attempts to tear them away from me, I slept with both until I was twenty years old when my ex moved in with me. That was a hard thing to give up, but was also a terribly embarrassing habit.

In 2005 I had a ‘mental breakdown’ and spent a week in the behavioral health unit (read: looney bin lol!) of our local hospital. On day two, my mom brought Teddy with her on her visit. It was one of the loneliest and most frightening times of my life, yet my dear stuffed friend didn’t judge me and didn’t hold it against me for ditching him for my ex.

Returning home was almost equally as frightening as being admitted to the hospital, and I slept with Teddy for a good six months after my return before he went to the closet.

When my ex and I started having severe problems, Teddy was again glad to comfort me. When my ex started traveling for work, staying gone for weeks or months at a time, Teddy was there to step up and take his place. When I kicked my ex out last July, Teddy was GLAD TO SEE HIM GO!

13 comments:

  1. He probably still has teddys footprint on his bum :)

    Hope you feel brighter soon

    xx

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  2. Very cool! When one of the Social Workers at the cancer institute was helping me with my personal directive she asked if I owned a teddy bear. I told her that I didn't. The next day I received a phone call saying that there was a parcel for me to pick up. Guess what it was!
    xoxoxo

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  3. I am assuming that today is your birthday based upon that first sentence? If soooo, Happy, Happy Birthday! Love this post and love the graphic as well..and I may have to use it someday! It's so fitting! Keep sleeping with that Teddy...there's no shame. I have one or two myself and I am 55! Blessings, Lisa

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  4. Happy Birthday! Hope you have a great one. I'm glad that your Teddy has been there for you when you needed him most. :-)

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  5. Happy birthday Vevay!!!

    I will let you into a little secret. I have slept cuddling a squishy pillow since I was about 8 years old. I cant sleep without it. Teddy's are WAY COOL and he loves you very very much.

    Luv Jen
    :)

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  6. Oooops....HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

    Hope your day is full of good stuff :)

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  7. Hey..Happy Birthday, and good for Teddy and you, kicking him to to the curb!

    Jan

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  8. Happy Birthday darling girl!
    I suppose then it is also Teddy and Blankie's birthday too?
    PARTY TIME!!
    Enjoy your special day.xx♥

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  9. baby- how did i miss your birthday !!?? I hope you had a happy one sweet girl xx

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  10. Happy Birthday!
    ~~Everything just gets better & better.

    All the best to you.
    `x~William.

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  11. So sweet and true. I've found, lately, that a hot water bottle makes a better bed companion than a man. My stuffed dragon is preferable in warm weather, though.

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  12. Oh! And, happy birthday! Welcome to the wonderful thirties.

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  13. So sorry I missed your birthday Vevay!

    I hope it was a good one :)

    G
    xx

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